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talk about an updraft…

…where updraft implies a high preponderance of likelihood that something is really happening—that you are on the right track.

This morning, Saturday September 1, we are ensconced in our new apartment 95% moved in and totally functional. We chose the apartment Monday, signed and took possession Tuesday, hired movers Wednesday, and Friday did the whole shebang by 2PM when the movers left. Okay, I had some more unpacking and organizing yet, and it took a bit to do the whole first grocery run thing, but we ate dinner in our organized and furnished apartment. It surely helps that we only brought what we needed (except for three extra boxes of kitchen stuff), and that we had a house full of goods already packed and ready to ship. But here we are.

In addition, our partner Tom takes possession of his apartment today, partly furnished because the owners, at the last minute, didn’t want what was there. And we found and signed a letter of intent on an office that totally meets our specifications in size, style, location, etc. And that was quite a story: Wednesday, we asked to be shown the “Jack Falstaff” building at the corner of 2nd and Brannan, but when we got there the broker called and said that he made a mistake and he was about to show us (to his surprise) a place down the street. But it turned out to be perfect, perfect and the letter of intent was signed yesterday. It is three blocks from our apartment and two blocks from Tom’s apartment. (Our fourth partner, Matt, lives in Oakland and will be commuting.)

Last odd fact, we have a straight visual shot through a maze of buildings to the upper floors of our office building from our balcony–didn’t know that when we took it, because we hadn’t found the office yet—and that will help us with some network challenges.

That’s a bit of what you get in an updraft—a high preponderance of things going your way.

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mpanttaja on September 1st 2007 in Business, Updrafting, Personal Notes

watching the sunrise in San Francisco

I am lying here on our inflatable mattress watching the sunrise over San Francisco Bay. We have landed, ironically, in our old apartment building in South Beach. Not “edgy” or really modern, but the best views and southern exposure (220 degrees of south light), gym, pool, hot tub, access to the Embarcadero riding and walking paths, near to where work will be and the ball park, and most, if not all, of the construction in this area is done. (Some of the places I was looking had a lot of construction ongoing.) We’ve only got the mattress, two sleeping bags, and one towel. Over the weekend we’ll bring down the furniture and kitchen which is all waiting in storage. We (I) went a bit overboard and we have  two bedrooms (all the best views go in the two bedroom apartments it seems), so we have space for guests. And there are great trails and playgrounds along the Embarcadero to entertain my granddaughters with.

We also found the perfect office yesterday, even better than the perfect office we found last week. So maybe we can get it all settle and really spend time on our work shortly. Our partner, Tom, found his apartment a block from here and we’ll be getting  to work there next week. Maybe we’ll miss doing our hiring interviews in Starbucks, the MOMA Cafe, Zebulon, and benches in South Park. Maybe not. I won’t miss scrambling around for quarters for parking meters.

It’s exciting and nerve racking. I find I’m very surprise to be suddenly doing this, though there are no obvious signs that it is a wrong path. Everyone once and awhile I get a little homesick, but that should improve when I actually have a home here.

That’s the news.

PS. We should get a website up shortly on our company, though it won’t have much of anything on it. The new company name is RebelVox.

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mpanttaja on August 29th 2007 in Life and Livelihood, Personal Notes

another roadhouse

Mike’s Roadhouse in Mojave on Route 66 is more of a diner actually. We finally did lunch around 5PM. The food was “fine” (though the beef stroganoff was not near as good as MaryEvelyn’s.)

The drive through Mojave and down through the Tehachapi was disorienting to say the least. Out of the desert has sprung miles and miles—thousands—of windmills of all sizes spinning in all directions. The kinetic display, as you try to navigate the highway, is disorienting. The Mojave desert generates far more power than it could consume: we passed one coal burning plant, two enormous solar panel arrays, and the tremendous set of wind generators. It’s like the desert is just this energy generation plant, only it’s hardly livable on it’s own. I guess that’s why you can use so much of the land for such installations.

We biked out again in the dusk into a blistering red sunset. This time it was smoke instead of cumulous. A neighboring camper said there has been a fire in Santa Barbara for two weeks. We hadn’t heard as we’ve gotten little or no news while we were traveling. (Our own fault, we didn’t listen to any radio or watch any tv or read many papers.) The train here is even louder that ever, though they don’t need the whistles here east of Bakersfield.

Home tomorrow.

PS. Overnight I discovered that I was wrong about the train whistles.

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Mary Panttaja on August 13th 2007 in Personal Notes, Travel Logs

kicks on route 66

Having spent the morning driving across Arizona, we were crossing the border at Needles around lunch time when, contrary to the recommendation of a friend who frequents the Dairy Queen there, we made a new executive rule: you do not stop the car for anything but an emergency (or fuel) when the temperature is 114 degrees. Just don’t do it.

Later, after things had cooled to 107 we decided we could risk a stop for cold drinks—but lunch was still out of the question. Now at 3:30 and 105, we still can’t really get interested in lunch. (Thank goodness for the nibbles we have stashed.)

Last night we stayed again on Route 66 in Gallup, NM. We ate a “fine” dinner at the historic El Rancho Hotel. It is a 1930’s roadhouse whose claim to fame was being the home away from home for movie stars filming in the area (plus the whole Route 66 thing). Quite quaint—and an easy, if not elegant, meal.

In the deepening dusk, after setting up camp, we headed out for a quick ride. There were storms in all directions, rain cascading in purple sheets against a pink and purple sky. It was dramatic as we rode alongside a train into the glimmer of sunset underneath the blanket of clouds.

Now we are chugging through the Mohave Desert. It’s shocking how much we take for granted the ability to move easily across these barren expanses. Seeing a couple of folks on the side of the road at 110 degrees makes you realize how difficult, if not dangerous, it would be to get stuck out here. But meanwhile, we’ve been just flying all day. (I forgot how high and forested Flagstaff is; quite a treat. Will have to spend some time there another trip.)

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Mary Panttaja on August 13th 2007 in Personal Notes, Travel Logs

a goofy day

Yesterday I had the bright idea to spend the day touring the Taos area. See the Taos Pueblo, the DH Lawrence ranch, maybe spin by Los Alamos. I made several mistakes, one of them thinking that it would be a brisk two hour drive to Taos.

Well, it was four hours there (some of it from goofs of my own, some from traffic, some from road work) and two hours forty-five back (for the return I figure out what “Santa Fe Relief Road” meant). It was a beautiful drive most of the way. (Though I cannot recommend Espanola or Santa Fe from the road.) Much of the drive follows the Rio Grande, some of it in a narrow canyon. The clouds were majestic over the desert bluffs and canyons. There is some beautiful country east of Santa Fe—a thick forest of pinyon and pine with few man-made landmarks. (How I should come to be east of Santa Fe on a route to Taos may come into question. Needless to say there are very long stretches of road that direction without any freeway exits (13 miles in one particular case.))

Taos itself I just drove through; it seemed very busy and touristy, though on another day might very well be interesting. I spent an hour walking the Taos Pueblo. It is very ancient and beautiful, though fairly brushed up and clean. The claim is that it has been steadily occupied for 1000 years. Quite an accomplishment on this continent.

So, a tiring day on the road with not much to show for it. I will calculate more carefully next time.

PS. All would have been made easier with use of some of the vast technology we own. But I didn’t take the GPS, I discovered 20 miles up the road that I  had only 20% charge on my phone (so I couldn’t use its mapping tools; just enough to SMS with Jim all day if I shut it off in between), and I didn’t take my computer. Of course, if I had read the map correctly (old fashioned technology), that would have solved some of my problems.

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Mary Panttaja on August 11th 2007 in Personal Notes, Travel Logs, Uncategorized

small towns and trains

An interesting conundrum for some small towns seems to be that they evolved on major thoroughfares—for all the right reasons, I’m sure, but now people live on major thoroughfares, which is not the most comfortable spot these days.

We slept over in Grants, New Mexico. Nearby is a traditional travel route from the Acoma area to the Zuni area, used for centuries by native Americans to travel from one major community to another. On that path is a famous bluff called El Morro on which natives and adventurers, leaders and common soldiers have inscribed their insignias, names, and dates. The bluff itself was valuable because of a persistant pool of water at its base, a old fashioned rest stop. The oldest European signature is from the Spanish governor of the area in 1605.

So this is a natural travel corridor and no less so for us. Highway 40 runs through here and a major rail line. Highway 40 is better known as the historic Route 66. The highway traffic is constant and, surprisingly, so is the rail traffic. Every 30 minutes or so another one goes through.

The bad news is that this small town (like the town of Palisade, CO where we stayed earlier) can’t afford proper train signals on their roads—you know, the ones that blink and come down across the road to prevent you from trying to cross at the wrong moment. It turns out that if you do not have such fancy barriers, the train must, for safety’s sake, sound its whistles all the way through town—every train, every trip. Makes for an interesting night for a newcomer. Our friend Valerie, new to Palisade and innocent of history, asked the town fathers why they put up with the whistles. They explained patiently to her that it cost $500,000 to put in the signals and, of course, as a small country town, they didn’t have an extra half million to spare. And, I’m sure that every small town in America adds up to a pretty bill for the shipping industry as well.

So each small town puts up with the noise, and unwary travelers have a occasional surprisingly noisy night’s sleep. Most of the campers are in big RV boxes sealed on all sides and insulated with air conditioners, so they may not even have noticed.

But the thunderstorm last night was fun to watch as it steamed by us, not a drop of rain fell on us so we could sit out and watch, but just a few miles off it was quite stormy.

PS. We will probably drive home on Route 66 as it is the most direct way and takes us through Jim’s old home town of Barstow. He spent part of his youth wandering the Mohave Desert, which is why we are sort of desert rats.

PPS. I just found our hotel in Albuquerque on a map—turns out it is on the historic Route 66, now known as Central but noted on a map as the “post 1937″ Route 66.

PPPS. We were not yet employed when we booked this hotel and were looking for something close to the convention center but cheap. This Econo Lodge is very nice, clean, great service, a warm pool, close in. (Okay, it is on the freeway and nothing is fancy.) I am very pleased by it and for only $55 per day.  I really do think it is valuable to economize—you experience a place more directly without a lot of insulation from everything. (Though I am enjoying the air conditioning this afternoon. Sorry.)

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Mary Panttaja on August 8th 2007 in Personal Notes, Travel Logs

suspended - chinle, arizona

It’s been a crazy wonderful day—suspended between the experience of rock, wind, and water and the stillness that pervades this desert, and, on the other hand, the work we about to engage in, which is of a more mental, social, and frenetic sort. Canyon de Chelley (’de shay’) is a deep canyon less than a mile across with vertical walls that reach from seven hundred to a thousand feet into the sky. Except that impression, from deep in the canyon, is mysteriously unlike what you experience from above. On the mesa, if you walk 200 yards away from the canyon, the entire thing disappears, becomes lost in the eons of time, like a dream. The rock plateau of pinyon, juniper, and sage runs away from you for hundreds of unbroken miles. There is nothing to disrupt the view. You have to walk right up to the edge of the abyss to believe that it is really there. You could drive by it all your life and never find it. Only by going back and forth can you reconcile them into one world.

This canyon is unusual in that it holds important Anasazi ruins that date from 700-1300 AD and it was inhabited when the Spaniards arrived by the Navajo peoples who still live here. (Most of the Anasazi settlements were disserted by 1300 AD for reasons that have not been firmly established.)

We sat for awhile on the cliff edge overlooking Spider Rock where two enormous, cathedral-like spires stand in the middle of Canyon de Chelley encirled by vertical walls of red sandstone. These spires are holy to the Navaho people, as they would be to anyone living with them. The bright sun made the entire space glow, and the spires themselves gave the scene more depth and dimension than your would see in an empty canyon. You did not see it as a “view”, but were drawn into the scene. The brown water of the river, filled to overflowing from last evening’s deluge, sluiced and roiled across the sandy valley bottom.

Two dozen buzzards soared in the afternoon updraft on the very brink of the canyon lip, their black sheen creating moving heiroglyphs. Swallows darted and dive-bombed us with no concern for proximity to our heads.

The canyon itself was suspended in time. A few fields had been recently cultivated, a small hogan stood ownership over a corn patch. It could have been any summer afternoon in the last two thousand years, but for the two-track path that meandered up the canyon floor.

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The national monument is a joint activity between the US government, the Navaho Nation, and the 84 families that “own” property in the canyon. The parcels of farmland have been passed down through generations. Most of the families “live” up on the mesa (above and adjacent (in a vertical sense) to their parcels in the canyon) where they are connected by paved roads to the town of Chinle, Arizona. Everyone who works in the monument is tied through birth or marriage to the original families. Most of them live here in the monument itself.

It was wonderful getting to know a little bit about them: our guide on the four-wheel-drive tour—it turned out to really be a four-wheeled event due to the aforementioned deluge, including being stuck in the river and winching both other trucks and ourselves lose—who grew up on his grandmother’s parcel and now lives across the canyon with his wife’s family; a flute maker and musician (how does Jim find these people?) who is Pima but lives here with his wife’s family and makes and sells an array of traditional flutes.

The society here is suspended between the land, their traditional culture, and the 21st century. They seem to be working to formulate a bridge between them. Watching the men rustle large 4-wheel drive vehicles through the canyon instead of horses and cattle felt like a fitting shift between the old and the new—a similar and relevant kind of work. It is a culture in suspension working to feel its way to the next thing. It’s a good thing. Suspension implies the quality of not-knowing exactly what should happen and thereby enabling the creation of that thing you can not quite imagine, but discover that you can create. Sometimes the challenge in our culture is that we already know exactly who we are, which does not leave a lot of freedom for creating something new.

*****

The rain storm that has been flustering off to the east all afternoon is approaching and I must fold camp here—that is, fold up the computer and start a late dinner. Jim is over under a tree playing his baritone sax as promised. (It is interesting to think about how he is, with his warmups, introducing the camping world to classical Philip Glass music.) The drips are starting to fly and my computer is more sensitve than his music. The thunder is rolling closer, and though the air is quiet here, the deep purple of the storm is stark against the green cottonwoods. Oops, another rumble even closer. Time to quit.

Postscript.

After dinner we took at short drive to the top of the mesa in the midst of the storm. What a scene! In the far west, where the sky was clear and pale blue, the sun skirted its light under the shelf of the storm to create rainbows that spanned the canyon. The storm sky was a menacing dark violet in sharp contrast to the gleaming straw colored grass lit with sunlight. The lightening bolted and flashed, thunder rumbling through the canyon and across the mesa. It was beautiful and exciting, and we returned home only a little wet.

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Mary Panttaja on August 7th 2007 in Personal Notes, Travel Logs

landed in Moab

So we had a great visit with our good friend Valerie in Palisade, CO, bought peaches (look up Palisade, CO), and headed south on 128. What a beautiful drive!! It follows the Colorado through enormous red rock—hardly anyone on this route—just a couple of resorts. Deeper and deeper red rock desert made more luscious by reading E Abbey as he talks about his time here before there was anything but the idea of a series of national parks.

So my literary brother sent me a link to the local Moab newspaper late last night and I read the lead article this morning. Sure enough, almost every tamarisk plant along the Colorado River is dead, eaten by the tamarisk beetle which they have imported to devour the imported tamarisk. It is a massive undertaking and it is hard to envision how they will deal with the debris (or if they will). But the challenge of managing invasive species is a very valuable thing to step up to. We deal with this in our own California rivers and in our fields. My battles with yellow star thistle are an ever-ongoing theme.

Planning to camp high up on the mesa, Dead Horse, in the middle of Islands in the Sky. The view is not to be missed and we are praying for a massive thunderstorm—that would be real entertainment. Meanwhile we sit and work in an internet cafe on the main drag, thoughts about our launching enterprise commanding our attention. And even on a cool day in the deserted (and desert) of Moab, the air conditioning is nice for a while. Why don’t we know what others know—we seem to often come to the canyonlands in August. And have the place to ourselves.

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Mary Panttaja on August 3rd 2007 in Personal Notes, Travel Logs

paddling and peddling

Yesterday, the 31st, we executed one of our favorite loops: a 12 mile paddle on the Snake River between Pacific Creek and Deadman’s Bar and a 11 mile bike ride back to the car. Easy on both legs (pun intended) as the river is basically flat, though fast, and the only hazard on the bike ride is wind.

This section of the Snake doesn’t host the large commercial raft operations, they put in at Deadman’s Bar, so we shared the river with only a few small drift boats (mostly folks being taught how to fly fish, but at the time of day when no fish would deign to be caught) and two men in an aluminum canoe. We were able to paddle away from them all and have our section of the river mostly to ourselves.

A generous sprinkling of wildlife:

  • The usual steadfast fisherman of the river, ospreys.
  • Three bald eagle sightings; one soaring out of a tree on the bank, one standing on a sandbar wrestling with a small fish, and the third dive bombing in on the second to steal lunch. They were all mature, the white of the heads and tails very stark in the even blues, greens, and greys of the river.
  • A variety of ducks, geese, and mergansers including babies.
  • A pair of cranes feeding in the grass along the refuge.
  • A small herd of antelope that fluttered back into the trees, a few stopping to look back and stare at us.
  • An elk in the distance grazing.
  • A medium size herd of bison, looking for all the world like cattle grazing out on a ranch.
  • A few pronghorn, one of the more unique creatures of Wyoming.

Today we are headed south. We just passed an early section of the Green River, which we will, more or less, be following down to it’s confluence with the Colorado near Moab. It will take us a few days to get there. Tonight we may camp near the confluence of the Green and the Yampa (northwestern Colorado) near Dinosaur National Monument. And maybe another paddle/peddle tour, this time on the Green.

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mpanttaja on August 1st 2007 in Personal Notes, Travel Logs

mentors

As we were about to leave, I casted about for something to read—not just anything (I have a large stack of business and technical books on the desktop)—but something comforting and inspiring to read. In the library, I was scanning my nature essay section and pulled out “Desert Solitaire, A Season in the Wilderness” by Edward Abbey. Of course, since we are heading to the red rock country, it was especially pertinent.

I mused a bit on those books that I would always own, those writers that always speak to me very personally. Many of the most important books in my life are of the experience of the person/soul/sensibility coming into contact with the natural world. That experience of nature and the planet is, for me, a key touchstone in my process of keeping in touch with who I really am. It helps me move passed my egoic worries and concerns and feel what really is.

So my mind started to make a list of who these people were. One day I’ll will do it more completely, but here is a start:

  • Gary Snyder
  • Edward Abbey
  • Aldo Leopold
  • Wendell Berry
  • Gretel Erhlich
  • Barry Lopez
  • Robert Thurman
  • Peter Mathiessen
  • Farley Mowat

I know there are more—but today it’s E Abbey and the red rock desert. And that is quite enough.

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mpanttaja on July 27th 2007 in Personal Notes, Travel Logs, Uncategorized